Fear-- the torment that I had to endure...:(

As a child, even at a young age I can remember the spirit of fear. My mother and dad had a spiritualness about them but they were not strong enough spiritually to realize I was being tormented as a child. I can remember as far back as 7 or 8 years old my mother would always open the spiritual door that would allow evil forces to enter our home and torment me for the most part of my young life. This is how it started, My mother was an LPN and my dad worked at a paper mill. He was never really home at night, but my mom was. She really liked to watch scary movies. The first movie she allowed me to watch was Stephen King's movie "IT". After that the exorcist. From that point on, I began to feel the presence of a spirit that I called evil. WARNING: YOU MUST BE VERY CAREFUL IN WHAT YOU ALLOW YOUR CHILDREN TO WATCH. WE THINK WE'RE JUST WATCHING TV WITH A SCARY TWIST, BUT EVERYTHING HAS ENERGY WHETHER NEGATIVE OR POSITIVE. IF YOU THINK IT IS UNTRUE TRY THIS: TURN YOUR TV TO TBN AND SLEEP ALL NIGHT WITH IT ON THIS CHANNEL--YOU WILL SLEEP IN SO MUCH PEACE. NOW TRY TO SLEEP WITH SOMETHING ON TV THAT is VIOLENT OR PRODUCES A NEGATIVE EMOTION--YOU WILL TOSS AND TURN WITH BAD DREAMS. Anyway, I feel evil spirits entered my parents home and began to attack me. I can remember having nightmares and not being able to move or wake from the dream--almost stuck in a paralyzed state. I would feel as if something would sit at the foot of my bed and bounce slightly only to wake me, to make its presence felt. I would try to ignore the presence but I could feel it so strongly. Now, I went through this all my young life. My mother was placed in the hospital because she had a nervous breakdown. My sisters and I are alone. My dad was an alcoholic let me add. So, by this time I am having really bad dreams and the presence is so strong. I could feel it but never see it. I would try to wake my dad up to let him know how afraid I was and I even wanted to ask him if I could sleep with him but he would never wake up. So, now I am about 12 years old suffering from fear. My mother was in and out of the hospital. I was a normal child in the daytime but at night my stomach would literally turn from fear. I constantly had to urinate due to the fear, but I was afraid to go to the bathroom. I could not sleep because the minute I would fall asleep, I would be awaken, I automatically begin to cry because the presence was there. If I turned my back, I would feel it strongly standing so closely. This cause me to to train myself to sleep on my right side--if not the presence would cause my heart to beat so fast that it would interfere with my breathing. I could not take this any longer. I told my grandma what was going on. She told me to pray every night before I went to bed. I would do that, this cause me to have more fear and the presence would literally touch my head (hair)now trying to make me think my prayers were a waste of time. Now this was the very moment in my young life that cause me to want to just die. I was suffering--no one would try to understand what I was going through until I told my granddad. He told me to read Psalm 23 & 37 every night,after I read these verses to leave my bible open. He told me to pray and ask God for spiritual strength, faith, and courage to rebuke the demon. He told me that God has allowed me to go through torment in order to gain power to rebuke evil forces. (rebuking begins with FAITH) I did what my granddad told me to do. This night I fell asleep after doing what I was told to do. I slept with a night light it was made like a little log cabin and the chimney was where the light bulb would sit. Well, the light was going off and on, it cause me to wake up fully (I was so full of fear I slept very lightly). The light went completely out, so I build up the courage to turn on my dad's bathroom light which poured dim light into my room. I knew my daddy would get up and turn his bathroom light off, so I tried to prepare myself if I woke up and the lights were off. I woke up and it was soo dark, only dim light came in the window from the street light!!! I never ever slept in complete darkness for the first time I saw it, it was the darkest shape standing by my room door. I thought it was my eyes, and maybe they had not adjusted to the darkness but the force made sure I knew it was there it moved. I was so scared but I was so tried of feeling this way. The more I tried to ignore the presence it would move closer. I started crying automatically my bible was open under my pillow. I touched my bible with my hand as if I was sneaking the word (bible--I was just that scared). I CLOSED MY EYES-- I SAID IN THE NAME OF JESUS--I REBUKE YOU EVIL. LEAVE ME NOW I AM A CHILD OF THE MOST HIGH GOD YOU MUST FLEE FROM ME NOW. from THAT POINT ON I TOOK MY LITTLE LIFE BACK. I STILL HAVE BAD DREAMS--I WAKE AND REBUKE THE FEAR. I CAN BE HOME ALONE OR IN A ROOM BY MYSELF I CAN FEEL THE PRESENCE OF SOMETHING BEHIND ME--I KNOW WHEN ITS GODLY AND WHEN ITS NOT-- I WILL START SING YES JESUS LOVES ME OR I WILL SIMPLY REBUKE IT. AS QUICKLY AS CAME IT LEAVES. I know when something is in my home unholy. I know when it is time to pray over my home and my children. I teach my children to rebuke fear, they do it. They may even tell me about their dreams, we discuss it. But I try to cover my child to keep them from going through torment. The enemy is busy, but God is victorious if you call on his son's name in faith peace will be still in your life. I PROMISE....Forever humble, angie